On Everything (and some other stuff, too)

And by everything, I really just mean some stuff and things. But it's like whoa long...so grab a snack or something.

{Jeff Hamada}

Did you all enjoy the day of silence for Japan? Did you do anything to help Japan, besides not blog? I mean, not to suggest that the lack of blogging didn't help. Everyone knows that with every blog posted, a child in Japan is robbed of a day's worth of food--so that's a really good effort and all. But if not, it's not too late.

Also, I hope you all realize that there is a supermoon tomorrow night. 

Oh, what? "Thanks to a fluke of orbital mechanics that brings the moon closer to Earth than that it has been in more than 18 years, the biggest full moon of 2011 will occur on Saturday, leading some observers to dub it a "supermoon."" So you'd best be watching...and know I'm watching too...and we'll have a moment.

And, I bought a book tonight that I reckon everyone else in the world needs.

Seriously, do you own 'All My Friends Are Dead' yet? It was one of at least 10 books I was convinced I "could not live without" tonight (the only one with pictures though, I swear) but it was the only one that made me desire to laugh and cry in equal measure, and the cheapest one, so it came home with me. So glad it did, too. Other book-ish things: I finally ordered Evie Paste's Indie Rock ABC book. AND I'm officially a subscriber to 'Psychology Today' magazine (among a bunch of other weird, non-trashy magz) and am already loving that, on the very first issue.
Oh, and everything else? I know I don't blog as much as I used to. And while I don't feel like I owe this blog anything, I do miss being a regular blogger. And I do plan to get back to that, eventually. But to catch you up in the few sentences I have before I lose the attention of the three of you that are reading this? I am buried in school work and for once, I'd like to keep on top of that before I'm six feet under, praying for second (third, fourth, fifth...you get it) chance. Things with my family are great--I love my family to death and we are extremely close. However, I have been struggling with a few issues from the past that I really never dealt with at the time...and it sucks. I'm also in a whole messy situation that I feel like I'm losing (never have had?) control over. A situation that involves another person, and another person that I don't want to hurt, and am most likely going to and...that just really sucks. I don't know another way to say it. Things with God are...well my faith is extremely small, I'll say that. But I'm grateful to have a God whose grace is infinite, and who takes me back, every.single.time. Because that's obviously what I need. As far as friends, if you mentioned the name of pretty much any friend of mine right now, I would probably reply "Oh I miss them so much." Guys? That is on me--the phone goes two ways and I have not called you. It shouldn't always be your job to hunt me down and kiss my forehead, but it seems like that's the kind of friend I've been lately. And I am truly sorry. I'm also looking for a job to start this summer (after I have my head out from all my assignments) Ideally, one of the places I'd be stoked to work at will want me. (see: book stores, record stores, thrift stores, Wild Flower Bread Co. I mean...one of them has got to be crazy enough to pay me, right?) My 365 poetry Tumblr lasted about 17 days. Okay, but I'm not giving up. So it's not once a day? It will be 365 times, before I stop posting there. The anniversary of my birth is in about two weeks...which actually means nothing, except that I'll be a little closer to how I actually feel. The AZ Blogger Meetup is next Saturday, and I'll be spending all day with Danielle AKA Biscuit on Friday. (for sure there will be photos from that) I'm still rewriting songs like it's my job (Hello?) And...I don't know. I have left out so much, but you get the idea.
Basically, my life is a mess and I need to sort that shit out. If you read all of that, I applaud your dedication to finishing what you start.
So...goodnight? Goodnight.
Here's a reward for reading:

Love, and peace, and God be with you all.